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I came home today to find Allison distraught, yelling at the top of her lungs. I learned that she was arguing with her sister and mis-behaving. After she refused to apologize to her sister as ordered, her mom promptly sent her to her room– she was told not to come out until she calms down. She balked when I offered my help, so I left her alone in her room.

As I walked away, I heard her screams:

Nobody loves me in this family. My sister doesn’t love me. My mommy doesn’t love me and my daddy doesn’t love me. And I don’t like anyone!

What drama princess! And stubborn. Took another 10, 15 minutes for her to calm down. I came in to sooth her and gave her a nice talk; then I carried her out to the family room. Then she did something nothing short of being miraculous; she walked up to her sister, started bawling and apologized (I didn’t even prompt her to apologize) with rivers of tears down her cheeks.

“I’m so sorry JeJe (big sister). bah…”

See what I mean about stubbornness? She refused to apologize when ordered and did it only on her own terms. Katelyn gave Allison a big-sisterly embrace, wiped away her sister’s tears– telling Allison that everything is okay. When asked why she is crying, Allison then said:

I cry because it’s very hard for me to say I’m sorry. bahh, bahhh…

Her mom & I looked at each other in total amazement. I mean total shock since we never seen an admission like this from Allison, ever. Suzanne almost cry right then & there. Me? I’m a rock!

bahhh, bahhhh….

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KatelynToday is a big day for our family. It’s our Katelyn’s birthday– she turns 6. Naturally, she’s very excited. Last night, we took her to a book store to choose a book as a gift for her classroom. And this past weekend she happily went with us getting stuffs ready for her party. We encouraged Katelyn to invite anybody she wants but she indicated that she doesn’t want a big party. So we’re keeping her party small, thank goodness!

Katelyn is doing well in kindergarten; she loves singing, dancing, reading, writing, drawing and coloring. She can do simple addition and subtraction. She’s on the shy side but made two close friends in her class, always telling me things about what she & Alicia or Chaelee do in school. She’s starting to help out with simple chores– she likes rinsing dishes (let’s see how long that’ll last). She’s really into Hello Kitty this year. She likes taking pictures and asked for her own camera, so I got her a pink Kodak digital camera (Valentine’s day makes it easier to buy things pink). Can hardly wait to see her reaction when she opens the present this evening. Looking forward to share with her the hobby of photography. Who knows, we may have a young shutterbug in the making.

Overheard Katelyn to her sister this past weekend that both cracked me up and gave me a jolting reminder:

“I have a purse. I’m a woman now!”

Katelyn is a good girl, I think we’ll keep her… 🙂

Any comments of birthday wishes will be appreciated. I’ll make sure Katelyn gets a chance to read them– I’m sure she will get a kick out of them.

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After putting it off long enough, I spent some time this weekend tweaking my blog.

First, I hacked some plug-in code to get the random posts in the format I needed. I had to go all the way to making changes in some SQL queries. While WordPress’ APIs are getting better, I still find myself going all the way and hit MySQL to get the necessary data. It’s not ideal because this type of code changes will break with schema changes. Oh well, it is a hack I guess… Finally, I tweaked the CSS to fix issues that had been bugging me. Some were minor issues like color and font inconsistencies; some were layout issues.

Some of results are:

  • The sidebar is re-arranged around a bit. More useful data is pushed up and space efficiency was taken into account.
  • The new list of random posts, with excerpts, appears at the bottom of the sidebar.
  • The footer is now rendered a lot cleaner than before.
  • The new list of most commented posts appears in one of the footer columns.
  • More consistent link hover styles for both black and blue backgrounds.
  • Time/Date is now displayed with no wrapping.

Next thing I want to tackle is to build a better Flikr widget than the one I’m currently using…

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allison & suzanneMy youngest daughter Allison has a favorite pillow. It’s actually a throw pillow, but it’s made of this super soft material. She doesn’t actually sleep on it, but uses it as a body pillow. She places it on her right side of the bed every night. She really loves the pillow– so much that she’s become very protective of it. Here’s a telling episode…

We let the girls sleep with us on our bed on Saturdays– it’s a treat for them and us! A few times we’d asked Allison if she wants to bring her favorite pillow with her to our bed. To our surprise, she always declines. Odd, but whatever… So this past Saturday, Suzanne grabbed Allison’s pillow without asking. Allison objected, but relented since it was late and Suzanne didn’t want to go back and get another pillow.

The next morning, Allison got up. First thing she did was stealthily got off the bed, grabbed her pillow and put it back on her bed before heading out to the living room. Little did she realized that her sly actions were being observed by Suzanne who was already up but been laying still in bed. Curious, Suzanne asked Allison later that morning why she took her pillow back rather than just leaving it behind (she’s not the tidy type)– to which Allison replied that she didn’t want her mom to starts liking her pillow and then keeps it.

Unbelievable! So it all made sense to us now, all this time she didn’t want to take her pillow into our bedroom on Saturday nights because she didn’t want to risk the chance that we decide to keep it after we “discover” how soft the pillow is. 🙂 It’s so funny how a 4 year-old can get so paranoid & protective of their things.

Too funny… 🙂

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There once was a rabbit named Miguel. His curiousness always got him in trouble. One day he smelled an unbearable essence of fresh dandelion, lettuce, and pieces of mint all smothered in acorn sauce. Miguel couldn’t take it, and ran as fast as his feeble legs could carry him to the direction of the smell. But once he got there he fell down a six foot pit, full of darkness. His scream was so loud it could shatter a human’s glass window. A wolf came up and said “Ooh, a nice plump one, I usually get skinny, bony ones. After that the wolf laughed liked a maniac. Miguel thought “Here is my chance!” He felt the energy pump through his blood and forced it to it feet and leaped! Once he hit the ground he ran home like there was no tomorrow.

When Miguel came home, he was in a sweat. When his mother, Rose, saw him she kept on asking motherly questions like “Where were you Miguel!” and “Oh, are you sick, you’re sweating!” Miguel quickly told his mother about the wolf before she put a spoon of disgusting medicine into his mouth. He shouldn’t have told her about the wolf because her worrying turned into hard, loud sobbing. Then she cried “ You could of ended up like your father!!” This caught him off guard. His mom didn’t usually talk about dad which name was Brian. He died by not paying his side of a bargain with some squirrel gangsters. Miguel pulled himself back into reality. Then he told his crying mother about his plan. She was just about to say it was too dangerous when Miguel said” It’s what father would do.” and gathered his friends into the center of Sherwood, his village.

Miguel told his friends Rocky the badger, Lightning the squirrel, Remy the rabbit, and Tuck the turtle about his brilliant plan or so Miguel said. After Miguel talked Tuck asked “ How are we going to get the fresh meat?” “ We’re going to the Sugarmen house.” This wasn’t suprising to the party of friends. They had been there when they were around six to seven years old. When they were rushing to the huge house Miguel thought “Will this work?”

When they got there , Remy asked if Rocky could open the door. Fortunetly the strong and huge badger opened the door with no difficulty. Lightning looked as cute as possible for a distraction. The others opened the freezer as quietly as they could and took a big piece of lamb chop and the escaped through the window. Lighting had no trouble escaping, he bit the family’s hands and went through the window like his friends.

When they got back to Sherwood they went back to their parents for hot supper and a colossal nap. But when Miguel came home instead of being dead beat he was full of life. He told his mom that they completed most of his plan. They had a celebration with food like roasted lettuce, sizzling corn and some fresh dandelion.

In the morning the four friends woke up very early and dug a immense hole as big as a rhino. They put the huge piece of meat cautiously into the pit. At the wolf’s cave he smelled the meat and exclaimed “ Mmm, smells good!” and took off. Just like Miguel the wolf fell down screeching all the way down. But when he jumped, instead of getting out he fell flat on his behind. Miguel and his friends all thought of a single word,”Yes!!” The friends all told everybody in the village about what had happened. Sherwood would now be safe with joy for now.

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The story above was written by my 4th grader nephew Andre. His story is entitled “Miguel’s Adventure!”. I thought he did a super job so I figure I’d post it as a way to show him that I’m proud of him and his work.

Andre must be super proud since he even signed the email with his full name (I didn’t even know his middle name till now). 🙂

Hi Uncle,
Look at this story I wrote all by myself.
What do you think? Good, huh?

Your only nephew,
Andre Alexander Tan

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After months of indecision, I’ve made up my mind on the candidate I’m voting for.

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Last year was a slow movie-going year for me. I caught very few movies in the theaters, skipping most of the summer blockbuster sequels. Just didn’t find many movies worthwhile of $10 tickets, I guess.

However, it is finally looking up as I think I caught the best movie of 2007 last evening. “No Country For Old Men” was premiered in May 2007 at the Cannes Film Festival. It’s directed by the Coen Brothers whose stuffs are usually awesome! I’d say insofar that this is their best piece of work so far.

The film opens with a scene in the arid and desolate desert. A professional heartless assassin strangles a policeman and escapes. Chigurh is a monstrous psychopath killer and carries a air cattle gun; he has a knack for the game of chance. The guy just reeks evil. He is the best character of the movie and amazingly performed by actor Javier Bardem.

A man named Llewelyn on a hunting trip finds a Mexican dying in a pickup truck surrounded by bodies. It’s a drug deal gone bad! Llewelyn grabs the bag of cash and took off. But later that night, his conscience got the better of him and he returned to the scene with water for the dying man. His return kicks off a series of run-ins with other drug dealers and assassins, including Chigurh. The hunter quickly becomes the prey now as he desperately tries to elude the determined Chigurh.

The movie was sparsely scored, instead the intense drama is played up by the great dialogues. That worked really well for me. The photography was subtle yet unforgiving, keeping you on your seat anticipating the unfolding events. If there is one thing to complain about, I’d point out the miscasting of Woody Harrelson as the other hit-man. Woody Harrelson? Come on, he sucks in dramatic role! But Tommy Lee Jones and Josh Brolin made up though, they were great in their roles.

The ending is refreshingly vague– a great departure from the usual Hollywood formula of happy ending. Definitely worth the $10 ticket; check it out if you had a chance.

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We spent this past Christmas with a big get-together at Tahoe. I mean big: four families! The cozy cabin I got was barely big enough to accommodate all of us. The weather was nice so the kids went out and played snow pretty much every day.

We probably had the most fun spending the afternoon sleighing at a snow park on Echo Summit. We also spend a day at Squaw Valley; the kids went snow-tubing while I snow-boarded with some of my cousins. Snow-boarding this time wasn’t as fun as I remembered– yet another subtle reminder of me getting old! We stopped and checked out Emerald Bay along the way. Too bad we were in haste and only spent a a few minutes snapping pictures; the place was simply breath-taking.

It was a nice break for everyone and it was timely for me after a few stressful weeks on the new job. I especially enjoyed the opportunity just relaxing and snapping some pictures on a snow-covered landscape.

 

 

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Wishing all of you a merry holiday season…

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ansel For the last few months, I spent some of my free time exploring Ansel Adams– reading books, browsing the web and watching documentaries on this amazing man. I figure I’d write something about my take on Ansel Adams.

In the pixel-rich age of today, it’s all too easy to forget that photography is a relatively new art form. In the early parts of 20th century, many in the art world simply did not accept it as a form of fine art: photography was thought to be too mechanical and that there’s little in interpretation one normally finds in art. Adams himself had doubts in the early years as he spent years hedging between photography and music. But it was inevitably that Adams embraced photography, and once he did, he became instrumental in establishing it as a respectable art form.

Adams had an eureka moment one morning in the early years as a photographer. Adams wrote of the pivotal moment of his career:

“The silver light turned every blade of grass and every particle of sand into a luminous metallic splendor; there was nothing, however small, that did not clash in the bright wind, that did not send arrows of light through the glassy air. I was suddenly arrested in the long crunching path up the ridge by an exceedingly pointed awareness of the light.

The moment I paused, the full impact of the mood was upon me; I saw more clearly than I have ever seen before or since the minute detail of the grasses …the small flotsam of the forest, the motion of the high clouds streaming above the peaks…

I dreamed that for a moment time stood quietly, and the vision became but the shadow of an infinitely greater world — and I had within the grasp of consciousness a transcendental experience.”

In devoting the rest of his life trying to recapture that singular transcendental experience, Ansel Adams developed into a visionary photographer. He had the keen ability of visualizing an image and had the ability of capturing that visualization with his camera. He once said:

“the photographer’s objective is not the duplication of visual reality… Photography is an investigation of both the outer and the inner worlds. The terms shoot and take are not accidental; they represent an attitude of conquest and appropriation. Only when the photographer grows into perception and creative impulse does the term make define a condition of empathy between the external and the internal events.”

One of the many things I admire about Adams’ photography is his capture of dramatic light and intricate shadows. There are so many layers to an Ansel Adams print. There’s the ever-present sense of awe, but usually at the same time a sense of stillness, peace and quietness, all adding to the photograph in a dramatic but harmonious way. They are unique that way!

Adam’s autobiography unfortunately was short of a total honest retrospective. He intentionally left out the darker but important parts of his life. For example, he suffered a total melt-down that lasted 1.5 years. Even at the peak of his game, he suffered self-doubts of his abilities as an artist. He also didn’t even mention his intense love affair with Patsy English, his dark room assistant. She was the great love of his life, but in the end Adams decided against leaving his wife Virginia. Without other sources, I’d have missed out on darker sides of an imperfect and complex man.

Contrary to popular belief, Adams didn’t capture mainstream fame until the late years of his life. Impossibly it seemed but the fact is that his photography didn’t really achieved financial stability for the artist until the late 70’s, only a few years before his death! He was still doing commercial gigs for the money until when he was in his 70’s. It is a rather sad fact. I believe his belated success was due to environmental movement becoming mainstream in the 70’s. Adams was an environmentalist long before the term was even coined. Many times his work was used in campaigning for establishing national parks and reserves. So it’s appropriate that the environmental movement called into attention Adams’ landscape photography. By the time of his death in ’84, his photos had became iconic! The name of Ansel Adams became closely associated with western American landscape. For me, like most people, Yosemite and Ansel Adams are synonymous.

When I look at a Yosemite scenery or a photograph, I think of Ansel Adams.

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